It’s so easy to get frustrated with God when we follow Him, to what WE think is His will for our lives.

We say, “Yes!” And then believe that because of our faithful obedience to His calling, He was going to make the way easy, clean-cut, and without any bends in the road. But that is a lie straight from the assailant. He WANTS us to believe that God called us somewhere only to leave us frustrated, hopeless, and alone. He wants us to feel like God turned His back on us. But the truth, the real truth is; that God promises us, that He is with us in the waiting. He is by our side with each bend in the road. Within every problem, and even when it looks like the road of Obedience is filled with overgrown shrubs, thorns and a 100% chance of thunderstorms. Following the will of God doesn’t mean a problem-free life; it means quite the opposite really. The moment you say yes to following Jesus, Satan works overtime to ensure you don’t ever reach the destination of God’s calling. He wants to leave you broken, hurting, and lonely. He wants you to be empty and angry with God.

I’d be lying if I said I don’t ever wrestle with God. Most nights I fall asleep doing just that. I try to remind God of all the “right” I’ve done, and how I repented for all the “wrong”, and I try to remind Him that I am following His will.. (Which really means, the life I want for myself, that I ASSUME He would want for me too, because I know best, right?) In case He seems to have forgotten. But, truth be told; He has never forgotten. And HE hasn’t left me. I know that in my moments of wrestling with Jesus, I become closer to Him. I give Him more of my heart, and He speaks into the places that are confused, and wounded. He lovingly reminds me, that He knows better than I do, and that because I did repent for the wrong I’ve done, and I chose to follow Him, He would be with me in my waiting. He is going to see His will in my life carried out. It might not be MY will, but it will be His. And ultimately, that’s the only life I would ever want.

So, as I sit here this morning, in canvas Toms, without an umbrella, in the middle of a torrential downpour, I will find shelter in the arms of my Savior. He won’t leave me, when everyone else has. He won’t remind me of all my wrongs, as others will. He won’t leave me here broken and confused. He will shelter me from the rain. He will mend the wounds, and heal my heart, in His timing. And He will see to it that His will for my life, is carried out. He will see me through to the end. I’m thankful this morning for the storms I’ve endured, am enduring, and will endure in the future because I know, within those I’m closer to the only love that will never expire or end, and Praise Him, he is with me while I wait for His plans to unfold.

heading image by: Emily Poulin- Instagram: @Emilieepoulin